Thursday, December 25, 2008

Can you dance with me?

Cause if you can't, I'm impossible to hold on to.

I have noticed, I'm really sporadic... I like being able to jump from thing to thing. I like challenges. I like puzzles and figuring things out. I like simple things for complicated reasons. I love having little tiny adventures each day. I love learning new things. I want someone to be able to join me in this search for everything the world has to offer.

Life is a dance. The beauty and grace of how each day flows into another must be reciprocated by our own movements. To merely stand still or perform a set of repetitive moves makes the dance limited and boring. I want to be tossed and spun around by life. I'm probably the least graceful person I know, but mistakes and falls create their own beauty. They make this dance ours in a way that no one else could perform it. So I hope to be able to let go and get lost in the music.

Monday, December 01, 2008

What a day.

Happy birthday to me. Guess what my present is? Fixing my car. :( Here's the low down.

I'm driving back to St. Louis from home, and everything is all good. I stop by the Columbia mall to run to the bathroom and stretch my legs. I come back out and start up my car. It starts with this awful grinding noise. I turn off my car and start it again. Grrrrrriiiiiinnnnnnnd. :( I call my mom and she helps me figure out what to do. I check the oil. Fine. I turn on the car and hold out my phone for my mom to hear the noise. She didn't like it either, so I called a friend of mine that lives here in Columbia. He came and we were able to drive the car a short distance to a repair shop. I spent the night with my friend's family, and went to the repair shop around 8 this morning. I've been here about 3 hours now. First off, my A/C Compressor locked up. In order to fix this you have to replace the part which is not cheap. Ok well... if we can get it fixed and get me back on the road, then it'll be ok. Well, there's a hole in my exhaust and my gasket cover is leaking. Fine, fix those too. Ok so, we have to order a part from out of town because your engine doesn't match any of the parts in town. Fine, whatever. The part comes in. Oh.... it doesn't fit. Ok so we can fix everything else, find a belt to bypass the part and that'll get you home. You just won't have A/C. I'll have to bring my car back in when I come in two weeks for the junior youth animator training. They'll have the right part for me then, and I won't have to spend $1000 for the dealer to fix it. Man. What a birthday. :/

Tuesday, November 11, 2008


I cannot believe that there was a time that I felt like I had nothing to do. I seem to be constantly having to cut things out or prioritizing others and then shoving other things to the back of the line. I feel really stressed out with trying to balance my service (which in and of itself is fairly full), ceramics, english, homework/studio time, applying for colleges/scholarships (and all of the essays to write for that), sleep, eating, keeping my sanity, being with the people around me, and other little odds and ends that should have been done AGES ago (such as graduation thank you cards). Everywhere I look, there's more and more and more and more and more and more stuff for me to do. Since moving to St. Louis, it's been like wading through water. At first just my toes got wet, and I was walking through some very shallow water for a while and then as more things started happening the water came up to about my knees. Then school started and I began to babysit regularly and the water came up to my waist. Suddenly as deadlines become apparent and other activities are occurring, it's as if there was a sudden drop off and I'm struggling to stay afloat. Thanksgiving is going to be my life preserver to hold onto until the life boat of winter break comes to save me.

Sunday, October 26, 2008

A Change of Pace

Yay for new blog layout. :) It's nice to change some things up once in a while.

I have ACTUALLY needed to use one of those planner/calendar/things lately. It's rather difficult to get into the habit of doing when after having one for 8 years and never using it! There's just been so much going on, that's it's hard to keep everything straight.

It's nice to be busy though. I've been spending quite a lot of time in the ceramics studio. Right now I'm working on a two and a half foot porcelain tree. I'm kind of excited for it. :) The tree so far is coming along really well. I'm excited.

I've been doing quite a few children's classes lately. I've got three separate classes going, which has been proving to be quite a bit of planning. It's been fun though. I'm really excited for the children's class that started today.

Speaking of being excited, I'm going to visit Robin this next weekend. I'll go on Friday afternoon and then come back sometime on Sunday. Friday night is a Halloween party and I've got a really awesome costume. I'm excited. :D Plus, I'll be able to stay for the famed Sunday brunch. Awesome.

As strange as it might sound to say, I've really appreciated feeling really happy again. There have been some good times since I've moved up here, but I'm finally starting to actually feel really happy. There are just a few things that I have to work on (such as cleaning my room) and then everything would be just perfect. I've especially been noticing this when I've been in the ceramics studio practically skipping everywhere and a huge grin taking up more than half of my face. It's been just great. :D

Happyness. It's a good thing.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

I'm a big kid now!

So, college. Yup. That thing. It's officially started now. I've met in both of my classes now, and I'm excited. I have English Comp 101 and Ceramics 2. The English class is just another English class, BUT (!!!) the exciting part is that it's only 50 minutes for three days a week (rather than the hour and a half during high school). Don't worry English teachers out there (more specifically my English teacher last year); I do enjoy literature (I am currently reading a Twelfth Night, Major Barbara, Grimm's Fairy Tales, and The Glass Castle), but I'm really not hip on the English part, the learning-how-to-write part. I don't really like essays. I can do them, but I don't like them. This class is going to be a challenge for me because of that. Also, so far I haven't seen anything that indicates that this class will actually be interesting to pay attention in. We'll just have to see.

Now, for the exciting part:
CLAY!!!! Oh beautiful, glorious clay!!! I love this class. It's intense (which will make it challenging), but I'm so excited for this challenge. My mind is already racing with new ideas for projects, figuring out ways to stretch my limits. :) I love the style of the professor, and I'm already making friends in the class. Yay! This is going to be an awesome semester/year. :D

Saturday, August 09, 2008

Random thought:

I just saw the letters NJ (referring to the state) and immediately processed it as saying ninja. I am now proclaiming that the sate of New Jersey is a ninja. This has no particular reference to anyone in or from the state being a ninja, but simply stating that the small bit of land that comprises New Jersey is a ninja.


Saturday, July 26, 2008

The Gypsy Life

So, things have been pretty crazy lately. I've been living out of a suit case, and not because I'm too lazy to unpack. I haven't lived anywhere for more than 2 weeks at a time. I moved on June 29th and haven't really stayed put since. I think it was the day before I moved, I found out that the woman we were planning on me staying with was going to be moving in August, so only living there a month was to be expected. However, two weeks into my stay Nebraska Baha'i School occurred. I went to that especially to see my mom (I was quite homesick at this point because home I knew was no longer actually home). I did get to meet some pretty awesome youth, and reconnect with some equally awesome people too. Plus a refresher on book 5 is always welcome. :) So a few days after I get home from Nebraska I get a call asking if I might be available to house sit. Since the house didn't need much more than for someone to live in it, I accepted. That ends on the third, and then on the 13th I'm moving to yet another house. I guess to sum that up:
Got here.
Was here for two weeks.
Went to Nebraska.
Was back for a few days.
House sitting for a week and a half.
Go back to first house for a few days shy of two weeks.
Move to new house.
All within a month and a half.

I've learned that I am not one to hop around from place to place. Sure, I love traveling, but I want to come back somewhere that I have roots. I like being able to be somewhere long enough to actually know where things go. It's amazing how comforting it is to know where things belong. Right now, I'm subsisting. I really want to be efficient though. However, efficiency comes with time and learning. We'll just see how this all goes.