Oh the Places You'll Go...

So, a lot has been going on lately and pretty much all of it has been just me trying to figure out who/what/where/why I am now and in the future.

First off, I have to give a bit of a correction. Despite the maybe-not-so-quiet urgings my mother gave to my brothers as they were figuring out their career paths, she has not in any way done this with me. The afore mentioned plans for the next 5 years of my life were discussed at length with my mom, but the ideas and decisions were all me. I really really like psychology, and I'm super excited at finding something to do with my life that I know will directly contribute to the betterment of the world. Also, the idea to be a psychologist was created the summer of last year, so I've had time to settle into the idea and grow roots. Although, I love clay and being an artist. My dilemma with being an artist for a living, though, is that I've never looked at any of my art (ceramics, photographs, drawings/paintings/etc.) as being something I could sell, or was even all that great. Also, my brother has always been the artist in the family. I know it's possible for there to be more than one artist in the family (especially if they work with two very different mediums), but that's just how it's always been.

Lately, I've been thinking more and more about what I am going to do with my life. The sheer fact that continuing with my art is a possibility is dizzying. I never really thought it was much of an option until I got that letter from Alfred University. Also, lately I've been thinking of going down that path especially after I got a call from my oldest brother yesterday. He and my sister-in-law had just bought a sculpture and thought of me, so he called and left a message to say that if it was in my heart, I should go for being an artist. A couple hours before I got that message, I had been talking to Dad in the car about how I really kinda do want to go to Alfred to study ceramics.

Although, what would I do with an art degree? I'm really not interested in teaching art. I highly doubt if my stuff would be in a museum somewhere. Although, it might be cool to start a shop with my art buddies for our one-of-a-kind (mostly functional) art, trinkets, and other suchwhat. Who knows?

Sorry this is so confusing to read. My brain feels a little muddled right now.